Day 2 of my Quest

So, now I am into my second day of finding myself. Today I am feeling that I have a little bit more clarity on where I am heading with my life. There is a sense of calm deep within and I am feeling quite at peace with my decisions up to this point. Another positive thing that I have found out is that I can trust my gut to lead me into the right direction and that I don't have to second guess whether it is the right thing to do. I can make decisions that will benefit me and be safe in making them.

I am heading towards a divorce for the second time which has brought on all this searching to find myself. At first, I thought to myself, "What is wrong with me that I can't make a marriage work after 13 years?". Now though I know that it wasn't just me that helped in this breakdown. It was both of us and I am willing to accept my responsibility for my part, but I am also going to let it go now and move forward. Instead of trying to fix it like I normally would have done or have tried to do I am now going to fix myself so that this doesn't happen again.

I am worthy of receiving honest, sincere, and loving relationships from others and with that said I am going to search for just that. I have let others take advantage of my own identity and takeover in my relationships, but starting today that will change. I am taking the power back and the only person you will see is ME!

If someone that I meet during this quest of finding myself doesn't like the person they see in front of them then maybe they weren't meant to be a part of my life anyway. Today the goal is as follows: love myself, trust myself, laugh, and take the time to smell those roses everyone speaks about. Ha ha. See I am already laughing!!! Maybe I will discover that I am a real funny person, too. I love you and I love ME!